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March 30, 2008
A Little Sweet, a Little Savory
Holy crap, has it really been that long since I blogged? Oops!
Despite my inability to actually get anything on this here page, in the little book Neeta gave me, I have 3 entries I've started and stopped:
1) Addiction to Life Change, the New Cocaine
2) Battling Your Essential Nature
3) The Hills Premiere
And sure, I think you'd be, oh, ENTHRALLED, by a) my total boredom with my own self, b) my battle with smoking (Jen: 1, smoking: 0), with keeping my apartment clean (Jen: 0, apartment (is it really the winner here, tho?): 1), and c) my belief that Heidi was only really pissed off at Spencer because the "growing" she wanted to do was THE SIZE OF HER LIPS (but really, who can not empathize with the desire to get your collagen injections done off-camera? A big enough zit and I debate going into work. Not really. Sort of.).
But, I've felt kind of stuck, unable to commit to a topic, just like LA (and I) can't seem to commit to a season.
There are signs of Spring:
- It was 90 degrees here weekend before last!
- I got my Hollywood Bowl calendar in the mail
- Broke out the Orly's Passion Fruit, which, DUDE, still has magic powers; the other day, some man on the street literally did a double take over my toes
- I booked my summer vacation -- Costa Rica with Amber!
But there are still signs of Winter:
- I broke it off with the new dude I was seeing, not sure why
- This weekend was my first one completely off in a few weeks, dredging up unpleasant memories of The Christmas That Wasn't
- I've spent the portions of the weekends I wasn't working just trying NOT to be miserable
Basically I think I just haven't committed to what my life is right now. Sometimes I'm just like, WHY, WHY do I have to be single again? WHY, WHY does my job require so much of my time? Which is totally pointless because a) I am and it does, and b) I'm going to miss out on all the fun things about being single and on the time I do have to myself if I don't just COMMIT already. Commit a.k.a. accept reality and stop whining about it.
I think this weekend was a turning point, however. I think I might be ready to fully commit to being single, and to Spring.
i. I hung new thrift store purchase ($9, people!):
ii. Installed an orchid in my other find, a Ritz Carlton silver champagne bucket and stand ($20):
iii. Actually dragged myself away from Stacy and Clinton and went out on Friday night with Neeta in open-toed! shoes and actually gave out my number.
iv. Tried this:
Oh. My. Goodness.
Everyone needs some bacon! and chocolate! together at last.
A little sweet, a little savory.
And maybe if I'm lucky, if I commit, maybe I'll get some more of that. There's always a fair amount of unsavoriness involved in being single -- the drama, the hopes, the fears, the disappointments (sounds like a high school graduation speech, no?). Actually, same goes for work. But usually there's some sweetness and savoriness to balance it out.
So here's my commitment to this being the last time I whine about it (for all our sakes), here's my commitment to Spring. And to chocolate! and bacon! together at last.
Posted by jen at March 30, 2008 08:40 PM
Comments
I am quite intrigued by the candy. I am not a huge fan of chocolate but anything involving bacon has to be good.
Posted by: Dagny at March 31, 2008 11:02 AM
i have to agree, that bacon chocolate bar is sublime and very unexpected.
as (i think) you know, you do much better than I at committing to being single and going for it. I need lessons.
Posted by: carolyn at April 1, 2008 12:23 PM
Are you serious about the bacon/chocolate thing? Is that a joke? Because man. That's weird.
Posted by: Librarian Girl at April 8, 2008 03:53 PM
YUM!!! I've got to try this.
Sounds about as good as my bacon + Guinness concoction, and not only is it good, but good for you (okay, maybe not).
Posted by: lisa at April 10, 2008 11:18 AM