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February 07, 2006

Back in the Saddle Again (Reluctantly)

January 1 was the expiration date on my self-imposed man hiatus. And it has taken me a month and a half to work myself up to it, but FINALLY, I have set up a date.

Am I excited? No. I wouldn't even book it for this week because I need another 10 days to convince myself not to cancel and to find something to wear.

Ugh.

So sad to think of the difference between me now, at 29, and how I felt about dating at 26. After Allan and I broke up, I tanned (well, for me I did -- this meant I achieved something close to a pale taupe instead of my usual porcelain), I bikini waxed, I bought a bunch of cute outfits I couldn't afford. I was DETERMINED.

And as a result, I dated some completely inappropriate men. Someone who still lived with his parents. Someone who scored 117 on an internet IQ test.

Now? I am just happy that most of this was arranged over text messages so I didn't even have to TALK to my date.

I guess I will have to talk to him eventually, but I don't have to think about that just yet. I've got a week.

All I can hope for is that my paralyzing dread will translate into me not dating anyone I don't really care for. Why go through root canal unless you REALLY, REALLY want to save that tooth?

UPDATE:: Just so you don't think I'm a big ole meanie who is going out on dates with people she doesn't even like: Actually, I am just a big ole whiner. I do want to date again. It's just like when you start going to the gym again. You just have to get over the three-week hump and then you remember the joys of cardiovascular fitness. Well. Something like that anyway.

Posted by jen at February 7, 2006 11:08 PM

Comments

If you don't want to date, why are you dating? Seriously?

Posted by: SFK at February 8, 2006 07:37 AM

HAHAHAAAAAAAAA. HIS VOICE IS LIKE NICK'S. HE IS NICK II.

You will understand my Nick pain after going out with him. But hey! He could turn out to be fun! You don't know!

Someone asked me why I was so picky. I had to explain that by weeding out idiots before I dated them, rather than after, I save myself a whole bunch of trouble. The inappropriate ones are okay every once in a blue moon, but let's be honest. You can't really sleep with a guy under his parents' roof. It's just too weird. Etcetcetc.

You're going to have to convince me not to cancel my date. Ergh. I still get slightly steamed thinking about our phone conversation last night.

Posted by: Gloria at February 8, 2006 09:02 AM

Good luck on the dating scene. And just remember what my stepmother has told me on numerous occasions -- "You have to kiss a LOT of frogs to find a prince."

Posted by: Dagny at February 8, 2006 11:35 AM

Have you checked out Logan's nightmare first date? http://www.volitionalerrors.blogspot.com/ As usual, you have to scroll past the boring sports stuff, but after that it gets pretty good. If you can't make it through the blog (leave yourself about 20 minutes), you can always catch his date on TV...
My advice about picking that serious guy: make sure he adores you. And about dating in general: do it! Don't cancel your date. You'll have to do it via text message, and that's not very nice.

Posted by: Urs at February 8, 2006 12:17 PM

i hope your date goes well because if you're already apprehensive about dating and then you go on your first date and it is horrible, it makes you want to crawl back in your hole and never come out. and yes, i am speaking from experience and no, i have not come out of my hole yet, but i think you know this. so anyway, good luck!!

Posted by: Penny at February 8, 2006 01:18 PM

Good luck! And seriously, being picky is a good thing, as long as you're still a little open-minded. Better to be picky than to be a big ho. :)

Posted by: Gwen at February 8, 2006 04:35 PM

go get 'em tiger! i know exactly how you feel, but hang in there!

Posted by: jenny at February 8, 2006 05:09 PM

lmao @ the love, care and support of Gloria.

Why go through root canal unless you REALLY, REALLY want to save that tooth?

I agree. Totally.

However, you still have to go to the dentist to work out whether or not the tooth is rotten.

I figure we should all just live the moment. So, Good Luck!!
If he's a twit, just say you have something really important to do (like return video tapes, jury duty, reply to your blog-comments, get the rhymes-with-truck away from him etc) and excuse yourself.

If you're lucky he'll be a woo-er instead of an argument-waiting-to-happen. ;)

Posted by: dan at February 8, 2006 07:51 PM

Oh my god, do women really think like this?!? I'm now officially terrified that every woman I've ever dated has gone through this same process with me, and I'm looking askance at every text message I've ever received.

On the other hand, maybe this is a good thing. I feel like I'm in the shoes of the guy you're about to date. I'm confused about this particular girl's lack of correspondence, and then when she does respond, I can just sense her disinterest dripping from the e-mails. But I think I'm not such a terrible guy (I don't live with my parents, I have a J-O-B--job, I think I'm smart, etc.). I mean, I am Logan THE GREAT, goddammit. Or so I have to keep reminding myself while I wait another four days for this girl's next one-line e-mail, and hope that she'll see what a superb specimen of guyness I am from one more date.

Now, if the reason her behavior towards me has been so erratic is actually because she's trying to find something to wear, I can handle that. If it's because she's trying to convince herself not to cancel and because I'm extra lame, that's another story. But either way, I'm adamant that she has no way of knowing any of this about me without going on at least one or two dates. So give your guy a chance! I'm pleading with you for the sake of all guys. Who knows? He might be the perfect guy for you. But you'll never know unless you give him a shot.

P.S. (C.E., thank god you're not reading this desperation-ridden comment, but if you are--this goes for you too. Gimme a shot! You won't regret it!)

Posted by: Logan the Great at February 9, 2006 04:04 AM